i cant tell if im caring about finals too much or too little. Or if i should even care at all. i want to go to a good college so i guess it matters but all of my anti-societal thoughts are screaming at me "WHO GIVES A SHIT" plus the nicer the college i get into the bigger the hole of student loan debt im digging myself into. and college degrees are basically just gateways to careers, and i dont really want a career. careers are bullshit, i just want to do whatever im passionate and i just need to find that. the only reason i would ever want a career is financial stability and thats just so shallow